What are you up to tomorrow?
Come see my work and vote for it at the SIAT Spring Showcase!
Location: SFU Surrey – it’s by Central City Mall (Surrey, British Columbia, Canada)
Date & Time: Saturday, January 28th, 2012, 12:00-5:00pm
I have several projects being featured…
( And vote for me! ;D )
UNTITLED POEM
I want you to be my greatest coincidence,
to beat on the door of my innocence.
Shall we wrap ourselves in irony?
like some sort of Shakespeare comedy?
For there’s a danger in your smile.
It might trick me for a while.
I’ve been led down a path,
which i’ve not been.
All together unexpected -
chasing names like we meant it.
Avoiding some calamity,
with our clandestine revelry.
Do tell what’s your name?
And what is your trade?
A heartsmith or just a pretty face.
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inspired by a page from my ironic life.
OH. And while we’re talking about irony… love this.
I shall weigh
my shoulders down, with the darkness of the world
I shall pray
for the sun to shine, on those suffering from hurt
I shall shine
my loving light, to the corners of the earth
one. day. we. will. say…
this is where love led the way : )
SPOILERS! SPOILERS! SPOILERS! SPOILERS! SPOILERS! SPOILERS! SPOILERS! SPOILERS!
Last night I re-watched Pay it Forward. This movie gets me every time. So beautiful and tragic * sigh *
I had never viewed it as a Christian Allegory before but that was definitely the reading I got this time. I think the kid represented Jesus, the people he helped were his disciples and well… you know how it ends. I think the Mom might have been some sort of Mary Magdalene figure.
Then I got to thinking, what if all of life is a Christian Allegory. I mean Jesus is Love right? And since everyone is a “divine creation” we are all Love. And if all of life is here to teach us about love and compassion then each death is for our sins. So we are all Jesus, in a way. Possibly? (Note: I am not Christian and I am not trying to be sacrilegious by writing this… I just like thinking about how love shows up in the world. No offence intended). Anywho I was really upset last night. I started pondering some recent events that have transpired in my life. The unfairness of loss. I think taking life is the worst thing one can do (weather it be the life of another or your own). I wanna watch some more Leo Buscaglia and go hug everyone. Love more. Yes…. and now a poem
A POEM ABOUT LOSS
the inescapable feeling of all the air suddenly disappearing from my lungs,
and the unsatisfyable need to be anywhere but here.
and the sinking knowing that in this moment everything is not alright.
and the uncomfortable notion of observing the bloodshot and tear stained eyes of my weeping self. and the search for beauty in that moment but the finding of only emptiness. vast, cold emptiness.
and despite all of the happiness and joy I might have had today I want nothing more than I cry myself to sleep.
and grab, squeeze, reach any part of you or anyone who has ever known you, or would want to, or would pretend to.
bolting from the room as if to vomit up my pain and shock.
and thinking deep down that everything will be fine, and there is a lesson to be learned, and this challenge will make me stronger… but not caring because I cannot breathe.
and sinking down, away, into the bathroom stall.
but not caring because I cannot breathe.
and I think that it’s unfair. But a life taken doesn’t care.
and I think that it’s not right. But that won’t bring you back tonight.
And I am at a loss.
of life.
Today I had such a romantic bus ride! I’ll probably never see the guy again (but then, with my ironic life you never know haha) but it was really cool just to share a moment with someone. This nice curly haired boy was sitting across from me smiling and after avoiding eye contact for what I realized was no reason I finally looked back at him. He was rocking out to some song and then laughed when he saw me watching him. After a minute he offered my a headphone so we both leaned across the aisle to share a moment of music. It reminded me of lady and the tramp a little bit… only less messy and meaty. Then more people got on so we had to severe our connection. The seat next to me became available and he moved into it. He kept playing different songs he liked and it was really cool to have this completely stranger just share the things that made him happy with me. I shall share with you some of the cool songs I discovered today:
We mostly listened but exchanged a few words about instruments and some jokes I couldn’t quite hear but laughed at anyway.
I love that I can be single and still experience romance. And that connecting with another person doesn’t have to mean anything or have a future or a past. Just a moment. A shared happiness? Maybe he’s gay. Maybe he is in a relationship. Maybe he isn’t looking for one. Maybe he’s vegan. Maybe he’s not. It doesn’t matter! It was beautiful.
I considered trying to do some sort of contact info exchange but it didn’t happen organically so I got off at my stop with a name and some songs in my back pocket. Thanks Tony. Maybe this is my missed connection. Maybe it’s just a moment. Oh and we grew up in the same area… Magic!
Don’t forget to smile!
This September I had a really amazing birthday. It was more of a weekend than a day really. On Friday I helped with the Frosh (kinda like University Orientation, fun games for first years to meet people etc) for my program at school and then went to Gorilla Food with my veggie friend Kyla. Then we got scalper tickets to the Ke$ha concert and had a glittery good time (my highlight was the giant inflatable zebra that LMFAO passed around… and the people behind me commenting on how “sleezy” the “get sleezy” tour was haha). On Saturday (my actual birthday) I helped with Frosh again and then got to see some awesome girls I haven’t seen much since High School. Sunday was a day of rest. I hung out downtown and then went for dinner with my Mom at my favorite raw vegan restaurant, Organic Lives. Then…
On September 12th I had the pleasure of interviewing my friend and fellow Super Forester Jesse Carmichael before his concert in Abbotsford, BC, Canada.
BIGGEST DISCO BALL I'VE EVER SEEN
It's huge!
I was first in contact with Jesse when I stayed at Zero One in Hawaii. Jesse is a founding member of Maroon 5, and a gift to the planet.
Jesse Being a Rock Star
It was actually so funny because just as I was finishing dinner with my Mom, Jesse and his Yoga Teacher showed up at the restaurant. It turns out he had e-mailed me inviting me to meet them but I had been out all day and didn’t get the message (maybe it’s time to get an Phone? haha). Magic!
Jesse is really awesome and knew about so many awesome things. After the interview we went for a walk in the parking lot and sat by some trees where he told me about a bunch of awesome things. For example, I learned about this awesome TED Talk on the power of Mushrooms. Fungi is amazing!
I also was inspired to participate in the 9/11 Intention Experiment (people from all around the world focused their intentions on bringing peace to a very specific region of the Middle East and they are going to track the results).
Special Thanks to Trini Nguyen-Don and Diana Luong for filming/driving/being awesome and SuperForest.org for making this come together!
So silly! This is the only photo I have of us together... it's pretty awesome : P
AMAZING! SO grateful! What an awesome experience and what amazing people I am blessed to know.
PS: Recently this totally come full circle when my friend Jeka played “This Love” and was able to raise a bunch of money for some leadership opportunities she wants to take advantage of.
Love!
Lately I have been introduced to a bunch of really immersive media experiences! I wanted to share some of them with you.
I recommend closing your eyes, finding a comfy, immersive chair, and experiencing the following…
The virtual haircut is an interesting experience. Didn’t work for me at first so try to find some good headphones for this one.
GO DOWNLOAD THE INCEPTION APP. I almost bought an iPhone just to use this. I honestly have had so many crazy experiences with this thing. One of my friends cried while using it and at first it really scared me but it was definitely worth trying and experimenting with.
RJDJ is another cool sound based app! You can make your own songs and have some really cool experiences!
If you want to have a low-tech immersive experience you can take a “sound walk”. According to this website
A form of active participation in the SOUNDSCAPE. Though the variations are many, the essential purpose of the soundwalk is to encourage the participant to listen discriminatively, and moreover, to make critical judgments about the sounds heard and their contribution to the balance or imbalance of the sonic environment.
In order to expand the listening experience, soundmaking may also become an important part of a soundwalk. Its purpose is to explore sounds that are related to the environment, and, on the other hand, to become aware of one’s own sounds (voice, footsteps, etc.) in the environmental context. A soundwalk may be scored in the form of a map which the participant uses both to guide the route and draw attention to features of acoustic interest. The map may also act as a score, directing the performer’s listening and soundmaking activities in a way that is not limited to a specific locale.
Basically, don’t talk to anyone, don’t get lost inside your mind, walk, and listen. It’s sort of like a very active form of meditation.
Things I loved about today:
I think the lyrics are AMAZING, GORGEOUS, WONDERFUL, MOVING…
http://www.songlyrics.com/ok-sweetheart/before-you-go-lyrics/
BEST OF 2011
Lowlights
All in all it was a truly amazing year. Thank you for being part of it.
Time to MAKE 2012 THE YEAR OF ENDLESS LOVE.
: )
