My Week Living Alone

My Mom and her boyfriend have been away on a cruise since Sunday and these are some things I have enjoyed about living alone:

  • I can sing as loud as I want
  • I can go to bed early and the house is quiet
  • The TV has been off all week
  • I can play music as loud as I want
  • The fridge is filled with vegetables
  • I can be naked whenever I want
  • It is quiet
  • I can leave my guitar in the living room
Sometimes it is nice to be alone : )

Home

A while back, a lovely post on SuperForest introduced me to Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros. Their song “Home” really stuck with me and makes all smiley inside. This is my favorite version:

I was thinking of this song one evening this weekend while saying goodbye to some friends before they went off to school far away this semester. When I first listened to the song it felt very “coupley”, two people, “home”, together. However, after further meditation I think I have learned something new about being “home”.

They say “home is where the heart is”…

I think home is wherever we find love. With friends, with strangers, with one person, with many, with ourselves, watching something sad, witnessing something beautiful… that is home. Home is wherever there is love. That feeling of unconditional acceptance..

I am so grateful to be home, always.

Today I saw a post on another inspiring blog with this adorable version of the song.

To wherever your travels may take you, and beyond.

Jenni

How To Be Alone

How To Be Alone.

This is one of those quirky, beautiful, lovely things. Like Juno only shorter! haha.

This year i’ve spent a lot of time alone and really think i’ve learned to be okay with that. I’m turning 19 and i’ve never been on a proper date or in a relationship and that is alright. I look at some unhappy people in unhappy relationships and I am grateful that I have just myself to worry about.

Even with friends though… My friends have changed a great deal recently and are continuing to do so. High school has ended and university is still just beginning for me. People are moving away and growing apart. Change is unavoidable and unrelenting. “It’s all for the best” as a wise musical once said (Godspell FTW).

My Mom recently commented on how much time I have been spending at home and to be honest I don’t think it has been an outragious amount, validating concern. Have I become a hermit without realizing it? And if this doesn’t bother me is that worrysome?

A few weeks ago I had a wonderful conversation on top of a rooftop in Vancouver. It was a beautiful day and the whole thing felt something like an honest, raw, offbeat short film. This girl who came here for school mentioned how sometimes she doesn’t have many friends. I was so grateful for that statement. I think in life, from my experience, there are busy times with lots of people to see and places to be and then there are quiet times of solitude and reflection. Some people like to deny it or think less of others but really there is nothing wrong with being by yourself. No matter how many lovers and pals you acquire you still need to go to sleep on your own and wake up with only you in your head. I sometimes feel I have to justify going places by myself. “Oh, I’m here alone because…” What should it matter if I have come alone? I am here now and we are conversing. That is all that matters… right? We all have some places we must go alone.

I think though, that there is something to be said for the people we meet in our alone places and the ones who pop up when no one else is around. I don’t know if that makes sense but this idea has been toying with me for some time now.

Maybe i’m all wrong. Isn’t one of the most important things in life to build community? To connect with others?

I suppose balance is the key. I’m really grateful that I have learned to be by myself and also to be with others. Really, “being” itself can be a challenge. I accept.

Journey Forth,

Jenni

One of those days

Sometimes I feel segregated from everyone else. Let’s face it, most of the lifestyle choices I make are not the societal norm. It can be hard at times because I know in my heart I am doing the right thing but other people don’t always agree. Weather it be with food choices, how to react to a personal situation, or consumption. Right now I feel so segregated.

There is a difference between doing what is right and doing what is easy.

I don’t meet to sound judgmental in posting this but I know i’ve had a few rather judgey posts lately. This is kind of my little rant zone at times. I really try to find fault within myself before I find fault within others. No one is perfect. We all have our own challenges to overcome. I was thinking about my personal effort to have an impact on the world. Maybe instead of having my own causes I should try to see what my friends are doing to make an impact and help them out. Maybe they will in turn want to help me out. Even if they don’t it is easier to change the world together than it is alone. If we all work together we can do anything. Right?

I also realize that everyone feels like this at times.

I know there are other people out there. I just need to find them… *sigh*