Dreamtime!

For a long time I gave up on the things I really wanted and settled for mediocre dreams. Forget that (Cee Lo Green style). People told me I wasn’t good enough, and that I’d never make it, and that can’t do it. Too short, too fat, not a US citizen, pitchy, talk too fast, not connected enough… But I am done with that.

Truthfully I have been on this kick since I saw the “Katy Perry: Part of Me” movie with my Mom this summer. I only get one life, why am I wasting it chasing my boring “attainable” dreams? It’s time to go big or go home, and if home is where the heart is then big I must go. During my later years of high school and the start of my university career I really settled into a frame of mind which let go of all my big aspirations, the dreams that are so exciting and so improbable that I’m scared… But that is the place where living truly happens for me.

But what will I do? What are my dreams? They have been quietly growing inside me for the past few years… Slipping out in the odd twitter post, inspiration, impulse to take an acting class at SFU, trips, meeting new people, the desire to audition… Professional role model, public speaker, leader… All guises for what I have really wanted since I was little…

I want to be a star. but not just any star, I want to be an entertainer, a famous entertainer. And I want to use my powers for good. I way to show the world my compassionate vegan self am bring more love into this Earth ball.
I think “entertainer” is a good word to describe what I want to do. I really have so many interests in so many things that it’s hard to choose… Comedy, music, acting, speaking… But there are people who get to do it all, and I want in!

Things I want to do:
Be on SNL (hosting or as a cast member)
Perform for a stadium arena
Write a book
Release an album (music or comedy or both)
Be in a movie
Host an awards show

I just have this feeling inside that this is what I was born to do. I am scared it will be hard, but self: you are special, you are unique, you are worthy… And you can do anything with enough perseverance and faith. If its not here yet, It’s just around the corner.

I am a Leader Causing Leaders [Part 3]

This post is likely to appear as a vomit of inspiration. How do you sum up a jam packed weekend in a cohesive manner?

Here are some quotes and ideas and thing I picked up at LEADERS CAUSING LEADERS 2011

 

There was this one super inspiring (mostly raw) vegan speaker, Raven Starr (she recommended this free numerology report that changed her life) really made me excited and proud to be vegan.

Another speaker I really loved was Guru Singh. He had some good quotes…

“You are weird!” – GURU SINGH

He led us through many breathing exercises.

“The idea that beauty is something other than you is absurd.” – GURU SINGH

He also talked about words a lot:

Human = Hue + Man (meaning the brain-mind connection)

Woman = Womb (meaning the future) + Man (meaning the brain-mind connection)

Another interesting thins was the 4 Steps to Compassionate Communication: Observations, Feelings, Needs and Requests which I found very similar to Clear Leadership’s Observations, Thoughts, Feelings and Wants.

I noticed many similarities between different presenters and previous leadership workshops I have done. I think all leadership presentations come down to these 3 things:

  1. Communication: How to share and connect with others
  2. Ownership: Some concept of taking responsibility for one’s own actions and experience
  3. Tools: Apologizing, Acknowledgment, Praise, Rewards… ideas of motivating and inspiring others

I was a 2011 Leader Causing Leaders! [part 1: the journey]

I recently flew to LA for the Leaders Causing Leaders conference and it was amazing! It was a really interesting trip from the very start. I sat next to this celebrity who was telling me all about this leadership cult and cautioning me about the conference. On my other side was this Mom whose son attended WE DAY! When I got to LAX I lost my passport on the plane but then got it back luckily! There was no free WiFi so I took a bus to Starbucks nearby. I have never been so happy to see a Starbucks! Then I got on this bus to go to Cafe Gratitude LA and fell asleep. I woke up super disoriented and didn’t know if I missed my stop. I didn’t wanna ask anyone so I just sat there being really stressed. Then suddenly I saw some familiar signs from my last trip to LA and next thing I knew it I was back at the Cafe! Yay!

Some friends from the workshop I did were working at the time I visited and they remembered me.

Hey! This girl came all the way from Canada to eat at our restaurant!

– Cafe Gratitude LA Friend

I made a list of all the things I am grateful for: sharing, juice, sunshine, planes, opportunity, love, memories, forgetfulness, public transit, stress/fear, children, lost & found, blue eyes, water, AdBusters, sunflowers, community, travel, adventure. I had… I AM HEALTHY, I AM ENLIVENED and I AM FESTIVE from their menu : )

Then I travelled to Kind Kreme, this raw vegan ice creme place and I had more amazing food. Yay California for Vegans! I got a phone call with some good news from home and as I was waiting to meet my lovely friend Dari who I stayed with, I did a big stretch to release all the tension I had been holding on to.

Then I wrote some poems:

You are my walking song

You keep me moving on

You’re like my cigarette

I smoke you every chance I get,

I wish we just met.

when will I learn that flying away won’t bring you closer to me…

…but anyways, you make for damn good poetry.

Books and Stuff to Check out: The Secret, A Course in Miracles, Byron Katie, The Economics of Happiness