I Think I Fell In Love (on the skytrain)

Beautiful EyeI think I always knew that we are all of one… But I didn’t really realize it until I was staring into this boys eyes on the skytrain yesterday. It was the weirdest thing. I bumped into my transit friend again, for the third time via a bus. Usually if I bump into someone twice I assume it is a sign and some sort of divine coincidence or irony… but three times… wow that must be something special.

I am almost scared to write about it… what if he reads it? What if I ruin it? But then (as SuperForest Jackson Would Say) it is in the past, and it is already a fantasy. And it’s already open to the creation, interpretation, and the fabrication of my forgetful mind.

So basically I turned to my left at the bus stop and there he was, just standing there, reading. I said hi. We got on the bus and talked about wanting to get lost in a forest, and how gross fast food is, and what we would do if the martix was real (or is it? haha). He was really tired and kept almost falling asleep. We talked about Hippy University. He told me he lost his mind. I asked how. He said it exploded. I asked what it looked like. He said it looked like grasses. I said I think mine would look like rainbows and glitter. He said you don’t really know how it’s going to come out until it happens. I told him he was like the Mad Hatter and Cheshire Cat combined. He said he identified with the Caterpillar.

When we got to the skytrain we talked about being alone. I remembered how I think we are always alone (in our minds) and how we are never alone (in the world). Our disagreements weren’t like an argument, more like one person reminding the other of a different perspective, our thoughts blowing back and forth like the wind. He mentioned how he was tired and wanted to be alone… but then said it would be ok if I was there. Wow.

He said he had decided to be awake. I wonder if it was because of me. Then, i’m not sure exactly how but we just stopped talking and were sitting there next to each other, staring into each other’s eyes. While I was looking there I was trying to see inside of him (because they say that the eyes are the portal to the soul) but I noticed that there wasn’t anything to see. It was just me and myself. I had all of the these thoughts and I wanted to write about it, and tell people, I wanted to keep it a secret, and I wanted to know what he was thinking, and I wondered if he knew what I was thinking, and then I tried to send him some intentions (with my mind) so that he’d know that I love him, and then I wondered what he were trying to tell me by just sitting there and staring at me. And I watched him almost fall asleep, going in and out of consciousness, and I laughed because I know what that’s like and it was beautiful. I didn’t want to move. My heart was beating and I was ever-so aware. I realized that we were having a moment of being alone, together.

Part of me wanted to ask for his phone number or someway to contact him, but I didn’t want to do anything to ruin that moment or to change, it because it was wonderful.

Later I was pondering how unintentionally and amazingly romantic he is… the words he said, his eyes… but then I realized it isn’t him – it’s me! I think that romance is all open to interpretation. I can see something or hear something and think it is romantic – and then I create it to be that way. I was singing this when I got home…

I didn’t mean to waste the water
but I couldn’t feel my hands
I stood outside in the rain for 10 minutes today
and I wondered what role in my life that you’d play

I find this incredibly ironic because I often joke that if I had a pick up line it would be, “remember that time I starred at you?” BUT NOW THAT HAS ACTUALLY HAPPENED.

Anywayy… similar to our last meeting…

I love that I can fall in love a million times a day. And that connecting with another person doesn’t have to mean anything or have a future or a past. Just a moment. It was beautiful. Maybe this is my missed connection. Maybe it’s just a moment

I AM RADIATING JOY!

Earlier today I was listening to Jason Mraz and pondering and thinking about some days I have had where I RADIATE JOY! There have been days when I have been overwhelmed with happiness. I was thinking, how can I make today one of those days? and then MAGIC HAPPENED!

I handed in my final film project JUST IN TIME! It was so perfect! Then I went to study for my exam using my two hour break. Using the amazing power of crowd sourcing and some super smart and dedicated friends I was able to get my studying done just in time for the exam. The exam was for my animation class and I finished my test early and everything! I felt pretty good about the exam but I needed to take a minute and let go of the tension I had created during the test and refocus on gratitude. It totally worked because just then I got a text message telling me that JASON MRAZ IS PLAYING A FREE CONCERT IN WHISTLER THIS WEEKEND! I was so overcome with joy I literally began jumping up and down. I was filled with so much excitement and passion for life! And how ironic that I was just pondering this feeling and this transformational musician earlier! Magic!

I bumped into some friends, planned a project and then went outside to dance in the parking lot with my amazing friends Colette and Madhav. I felt so free and BEAMING! It was so nice to connect with people and just celebrate music and happiness!

Then I went back inside with Colette to show her THE HUMANIFESTO! A magic little video filled with people and ideas I love! It also happens to connect me and Jason Mraz in a funny way : P

It was nice to talk because my conversation reminded me of a few things…

1. The Power of MAYBE!

I was telling Colette about another day (without shoes) when I vividly remember being SO FILLED WITH JOY AND GRATITUDE THAT IT WAS RADIATING OUT OF ME. I was sitting on the bus, going to the theatre and the main reason I was excited was because there was a small chance the boy I really liked would be there. There was no guarantee, but the power of maybe was enough to elate me and make my day amazing. Maybe I will see Jason Mraz on Friday! Maybe I won’t! But maybe feels nice : D
2. My life is filled with beautiful things and people
I am so lucky to know so many amazing people and have my life touched by them. I am truly in awe.
As I was going towards the bus stop to go home I was thinking about being in exactly the place I am meant to be, at exactly the right time. Just as I was thinking this three young boys came up to me and asked me for a hug! It was so magical! I told them that hugs should last 20 seconds
SIDENOTE: The oxytocin released in a 20-second hug not only increases bonding and builds trust but also positively impacts your cardiovascular system, which improves heart health : )
via http://www.hendricks.com/
and at first I thought they’d be creeped out, but they were happy to have 20 second hugs! Then I got scared maybe they wanted to hug me to steal from me so I kept saying, “please don’t steal from me!” LOL! I think they just wanted to hug me because i’m a beautiful attractive person, and that was really sweet.
Then I got on the bus and wrote an amazing song/poem about LOVE that I am going to record on ukelele now.
Yay!
I am in love with my life.
Today was a reminder for me to do what brings me joy, because when I have joy I can share joy. And though my joy may not resonate for everyone, or show up as elevating for all people, it does for some. And I think that is the difference I am meant to make in the world. When do you feel most fulfilled? When do you change this world?
Do that : )
A little light never hurt nobody, send out your ray of sunshine.
 – Jason Mraz, The Sunshine Song

Perfect Timing

Sometimes I have perfect timing. Arriving on the sky train platform just as the train arrives, bumping into someone in a strange and random place, JUST catching the bus… I could go on.

Yesterday I experienced amazing timing. I was on my way to the final awards presentation for the Global Agents Micro Credit Challenge, an event which I have been promoting extensively as part of my LEAD program team project. They had asked me to make a video/slideshow compilation of the project so as I took the sky train to the Global Agents HQ I edited some photos and videos together. My laptop battery was at 20% so I tried to be really efficient. I finished the project and then exported the final video with 8% battery remaining. I had my fingers crossed as I exported the video. With 1% battery remaining I transferred the video to my flash drive, ejected the flash drive and closed my laptop to avoid losing everything I had open. *phewf* OH, and this all happened just as I arrived at my sky train stop! As I was walking to the awards presentation I bumped into my friends Diana and Justin from IATSU! They had just come from a conference our Faculty put on (which I missed out on but wanted to attend). Perfect! I arrived at the awards event on time and really enjoyed seeing all of the creative ideas the teams came up with.  Check out all the photos from the event here!

now… GO HAVE YOURSELF AN ADVENTURE : )