pain is the simplist method of identifying addictions
You attract people who make you conscious of your addictions.
If processing has not brought transformation, discuss feelings.
Accept Feelings, Accept Conditions, Change Conditions
“If you have not developed your capacity for loving yourself, you will be lonely regardless of who you are with.”
I stayed at a super smokey hostel the night before which plugged up my sinuses. Kiel was amazingly generous and gifted me some extra carrot juice he had lying around. Perfect! It was a really magical dinner (Moby was eating behind me and three people had birthdays hehe).
After a very interesting journey to my hostel (being approached and getting to practice saying “NO” multiple times and then being mistaken for a homeless person) I finally arrived.
The hostel was very strange… there was this smokey pool and my room was super dark so I was too scared to find my bed… and there were so many random cats! I ended up talking with this nice Australian guy (and fellow Jason Mraz fan) until like 3 in the morning. When I woke up I went by the pool to take some photos of the AMAZING JUICE that Kiel gave me and then this other traveller approached me. I ended up taking these beautiful portraits of my new friend Rick. Talk about right place at the right time : )
Over the past weeks I have been creating that I have had several long, intense learning conversations with various people. The result of these conversations has left me feeling separate and disconnected from others. I started making up that “being a leader is too hard” and “other people don’t understand me”… even “I should just give up!”
I feel frustrated and alone when I create these thoughts.
I’ve been making myself wrong. I’ve been making myself separate, which takes away from the oneness of the world.
A few things I will remember:
They are not responding to me, nothing is personal.
Upsets are learning and growth opportunities. I embrace them!
Everyone is just doing their best, all of the time.
I am love. You are love. Love is magic. We are all one.
Going to the Golden Gate Bridge by Accident
Going to a yoga studio that didn’t exist
bussing to LA and stopping in the middle of nowhere… at a McDonalds
Motion City Soundtrack!
weary traveller of the early morn
I see you quiet eyes
I see your faces scorn
But these customs which have come to pass
bring us all together – uniting us at last.
This City is Poetry
So tired I don’t know up from down
trying to find my way around
loving, leaving, receiving and believing in us.
making my way in a new place
not one single familiar face
finding new friends along the way
love is, everyday.
SONG FROM LAST NIGHT:
I was meant to walk this way
to hear your song
though the way I walked was wrong
I was meant to hear your song
the texture of the houses
the quality of the pigeons
thickness of the smog
the price of transit
houses! oh so many houses!
music on the bus
dancing in the aisles
CAFE GRATITUDE: (spoken)
I don’t know if this place is a dialogue or a monologue, but it is the real live cafe. What do you love about yourself?
misery loves company and happiness creates it,
but abundance knows it was there all along.
They do have loonies in the states – I feel like a pirate with all this silver and gold!
when we jump
are we falling or flying?
when we jump
are we living or dying?
have I come here by mistake
or is this a chance I was meant to take?
to let it all
When god sends fog I choose fog.
When god sends smog I choose smog.
When love sends fog I choose fog.
When love sends smog I choose smog.
When love sends god I choose god.
NO MEANS, not now. not how.
Public art, redefined. The luggage tagged fence is a friend of mine.
I’ve been to places that don’t exist
i’ve seen faces with open lips
i’ve touched fingers that I nearly missed
and i’d do it all again
I’ve got sand in my soul and sand on my soles.
I fell asleep
to an ocean of dreams
I sailed across
to a pier of belief
and I rode the wave
Crabs! The butterflies of love!
MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK:
“Everything is alright
let’s get fucked up and die
i’m on fire, but now I think i’m ready, to bust a move, check it out i’m rockin steady!”
“You lose so many things in this small world” – James Kirkland
WHAT A JUICY WORKSHOP!
Ho a pono pono
a pono pono
I’m so sorry
I wanna thank you
please forgive me
I love you
Ho a pono pono
a pono pono
There is nothing you can do that will make me stop loving you.
secondhand soundtrack on a starry night
i’ll let you be the melody that lights me inside
I bought a one-way ticket on the early morning train
because i’m going home but i’m going away
there’s a love in my heart that is here to stay
for I hold space, in every place
maybe later i’ll be back like a train on the track
THAT’S ALL I GOT!
Circa August 16 to 24th, 2011
what to do?
I keep coming back to you.
Been here before.
From the folklore,
I can see
what’s in store.
Every morning there’s a sunrise
and we see it coming clean,
Like jumping on a trampoline
I pretend that I am me.
Happy Birthday @_Sheezy